Moving On

Here I am. All alone in my little world. Where did everybody go? We’ve been together all our lives and yet I never thought that things could take such a drastic turn like this. Now it seems like we’re worlds apart and nothing can be done. Sometimes I wish that I was never born and maybe things would have been different. Things can’t ever be the same. I tried and failed and now I’ve come to the point where I feel like giving up. What hope could ever be there in a broken heart that is losing faith and the will to live on like this? One day you’re flying at the top, the next day you’ve crash landed and you’ve broken more than just a leg. Things in life sometimes paralyse the mind and also the heart. At times it even feels like there is no-one in the world that can help and most of the time that is true to me.

A changing moment is hard to find when you’re drowning in sorrow. It seems like your spirit is drained and cannot seem to find the strength to reach out. When we were together it seemed we were always happy. Despite the ups and downs we may have had I still held on. But the day you gave up, a part of me was lost. A part which no-one can ever replace. I gave you my life and in return you gave me anguish. I gave you my heart and you trampled on it. What did I do to deserve the brutality that you put me through? What did I ever say that made you bring out such harsh words to me? What else did I ever do besides doing you good? I thought that it could be forever, but I realise that you never cared.

I can’t live my life in grief because of the dark shadow you left in my heart. But in a way you taught me something. I know for sure that I’ve come out of this a stronger person. You can’t trust everyone in this world. I realise that you can’t force someone to love you back no matter how much you love them. I’m responsible for me, and for what I do. I’m sick and tired of living like a bird caged behind bars when I should be flying above the mountains. I cannot cling to the dreams of yesterday because the light isn’t shining in those dreams no more. I’ve got to believe in myself when everyone else doubts me. I have to wipe away that draped veil of darkness and penetrate through it all. I know that I have to rise from within this insanity which my life now finds itself in. You brought me down so far that I cannot go down and farther. Now I have to conquer all that I once believed could not be conquered. I must stand firm in my conviction that I will not be defeated anymore. My dignity can no longer be at stake because of another. I’m moving on.

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N.B. It's not me by the way, its just creative writing I felt like doing

Such love

Such love
When I was a sinner yet still He loved me
Such love
When I cheated and lied and was too blind to even see
Such love
What did I ever do or say that I could ever deserve
Such love
I could have been dead long back but my life He chose to preserve
Such love
I can never do or say anything that could ever repay
Such love
All i can do is live and follow and walk the way
Of Such love!

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Im thinking...

Have you ever caught yourself thinking, “Will I ever change”? This question has been ringing in my head for days and I keep wondering, what and why would I change. But all this thinking of varied things just complicate my reasoning of getting to a point or coming with the answer. I just wonder in many ways why my mind is placed so much in disarray. This confusion drives me deep in thought and I’m lost in a world of my own. It is the obvious thinking of people that we’ll all grow up and mature more than we are now. But my concern is myself. See I know I find it hard to explain myself in a way that people can understand and see exactly what I mean. Sometimes I think that the complexity of the mind is too vast that it can’t be put in words for one to absorb the contents thereof and understand the point of view. I personally believe that if I really put my mind too deep I’d either come up with something extraordinary or I’d zone out completely. I don’t know what other people of my age think at this stage of life, but all I know is that I’m different, and maybe too different. More or less in maturity than others too. I don’t want anyone thinking I got some complex because I shut out and sort out issues by myself without the help of so called friends. I’m predestinated to a greater destiny than what men see me at now. I’ve been anointed to prosper and that is an assurance no-one can take from me.

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Life is

Like Job today I’d say, “oh if my words were written in a book”. Life has a funny way of changing your view on things. Sometimes it’s too hard but yet you must go through it. Emotion, it’s always about emotion. Feelings, trust, let downs oh how far too many these things are. Growing up is hard thing but there is no choice to make. One must go through a valley to one day come up on a mountain. Emotions boiling within my being. Feel like the only way to express them is through my tears and silent words. I wish I could quieten my mind for some time. The noise of silence is sometimes so deafening. At a time like this is better to live of die? But the will to live holds its arms tightly around my heart. There can be no struggle, I just have to trust the hands that hold my life. Learning that its too much of a burden to hurt for another. Yet I still must but do I have to? Far away my mind must travel, only to come back again and realise why it must go. Let me be propelled by a dream and hide fear and worry. What is the dream? I do not know. Life is...

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